want

so whats up im just relaxing at my gfs house and shes looking at me type this very msg but i dont care because shes dumb. i started this post cause she was napping and i was booooored but she woke up and now shes trying on sunglasses. uhhh ya now that im just throwing disc its a pretty easy life besides anticipation for college. o im going to cal poly by the way. pretty nice. its close by so i dont have to dorm but if i dont dorm im gonna still b in the house and i wud very much like to get out. anyways ya track is coming to an end and i need a hobby. guitar is still pretty cool. i deduced that my skills only go twords leaning songs and not chords or anything like that but i do noe many songs now. most of them are jack johnson. he is still the awsomest guy in the know universe besides jesus.. well ya i guess this is some random post.



aight im back with another one

i look at the world in general and i see o much want. in my life there is want also.

i want new jeans or i want video games

all this want causes a hindrance in my life. poses stress.

some kind of invisible bricks on my shoulders ever weighing me down

i remember being told about the Buddhist teachings. i dont think its bad to look into other religions just dont take them to your heart.
anyways from what i understand they if u eliminate all wants in your life u become peaceful

i can see how that would work to a certain degree. sooo i would like to think im trying to but im not following that principle. i think just typing about it makes me reflect about my life and what i want and dont need. i wish i could just drop all the lame fashion that i have concocked about myself and come to school eveyday in whatever i see first when in te morning but my insecurities just get in the way so i try to think of what would look good but it always just ends up being a dbhs hoodie for like 8 days in a row

o how my ego effects my life

anyways i finally got to go to davids house that he's renting a room in and it is so huge. i feel all yucky from the track meet. davids room is wice the size of mine and its pretty much blanck with one troy wrestling poster on the left wall.

i guess thats it for now

PEACE